| 29. Not Anymore ; |
[Dec. 10th, 2009|09:11 pm] |
It's Really Over this time.
& if this is really what you want i'll give it to you. this is what i call trust. |
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| 28. Things happen for reasons. |
[Dec. 9th, 2009|07:02 pm] |
Next term onwards i'll be attached to charcoal for 3 months. Within that three months i need to draw up my new year resolutions. & i need to brace myself cos things arent the same anymore. I need to learn how to fend for myself and stop relying on people. (:
This term my results are going to suck big time cos im not putting effort and its kinda late. I just dont have that determination anymore after what ive been through for the past 6 - 8 months.
I think i suck at hiding my feelings for someone. DAMN IT.
SPOTLIGHT
Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Are you a guard in a prison, maximum security?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Do we stay home all the time ?cause you want me to yourself?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Or am I locked away out of fear that I'd find someone else
Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Well, I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
Oh, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry
Is this relationship fulfilling your needs as well as mine?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Or is this just my sentence? Am I doing time?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
If this is love, real, real love, then I'm staying, no doubt
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
But if I'm just love's prisoner then I'm busting out
Is that you? Is that you? Yeah
Well, I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
Oh, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry
Oh, you ought to be ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think you're doing
Loving me, loving me so wrong!
Baby, all I do is try
To show you that you're my
One and only guy
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes, ?cause baby I don't lie
Hey ?cause I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
No, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right you won't have to worry
I don't like |
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| 27. Thankful |
[Dec. 9th, 2009|06:55 pm] |
This year although many things have happened.
Whenever im feeling empty
whenever im feeling lonely
whenever im down
whenever im hurt by friends
whenever im not feeling well
whenever i have problems
whenever i get into shit.
there's this someone constantly there for me, telling me
im not alone.
taking good care of me.
THANK YOU KENENTH LPR! (: |
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| 26. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBY WAE! (: |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|03:51 pm] |
OKAY OKAY! I JUST ENDED LESSONS AT AROUND 12 plus. BASICALLY I PON-ED BOTH LESSONS, I DONT FEEL LIKE GOING FOR LESSONS. DONT FEEL VERY RIGHT EITHER. ITS A COMBINATION OF MIXED FEELINGS. OH WELLS, MUFFINS FOR SCHOOL PEOPLE TODAY AGAIN! (: THE JOY OF SHARING WITH THE RIGHT people! (:
SUBMISSION FOR TG VIDEO! VERY VERY NICE! ALL THANKS TO FAIZ! (: I LIKE ITS LIKE A REAL MOVIE! AHAH ((:
NOW I NEED TO HEAD OUT FOR ABBY'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION, DOUBT ANY WORK CAN BE DONE TODAY, BUT TMR I WILL HAVE TO RUSH ULT SLIDES AND PORTFOLIO! ):
AFTER WHICH I HAVE TO START STUDYING FOR MY PAPERS! |
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| 25. You are words to a melody of love (: |
[Nov. 29th, 2009|04:13 pm] |
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I met this guy quite recently. He is tall, tanned and pretty much my kind of idea guy. but problem is, he has someone in his heart already and i know im not the one. |
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| 24. I Wont Smile W/O You ; |
[Nov. 25th, 2009|01:09 am] |
I have found a new reason for school, ive never look so forward to going to school for a very long time.
Wishing that every time when i walk out you'll be the one i'll bump into, every break we'll be able to meet? ohwells i havent had the feeling for the longest time.
Although i know somehow you're not the one but im pretty much contented with how things are now. |
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| 23. I Want To Know What Love Is & I Want YOU To Show Me! (: |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|11:05 pm] |
I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING HERE FOR THE LONGEST TIME! (: HAHAHAH
SCHOOL'S BEEN PRETTY BUSY WITH THEME PARTY THINGS AND PROJECTS! BUT IM HAPPY TO SAY THAT THEME PARTY FINALLY ENDED LAST NIGHT! (: EMCEE-ING WITH JD WAS ALRIGHT I GUESS. HE DID A LOT COS I HAD A VERY BAD STAGE FRIGHT! AHAHAH
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& HE ATTENDED THEME PARTY! (: HAHAH
OKAY OKAY. IM HAPPY NOW. VERY HAPPY IDK WHY! I WOKE UP A LITTLE TOO LATE FOR LESSON TODAY SO I DECIDED TO GIVE IT A MISS AND I WAS LUCKY COS! LESSON CANCELED! HAHAH I BAKE CUPCAKES THAT TURNED OUT TO BE MUFFINS COS I RAN OUT OF CUPCAKE PAPER INSTEAD I USED MUFFIN CUPS! HAHAHAHAAH BUT IM VERY HAPPY COS MUMMY ATE IT AND SHE SAID ITS NICE! (: FINALLY MUMMY ATE MY PASTRY! OTHER THAN THE PINEAPPLE TARTS I BAKE FOR CNY! ((:
MY MUFFINS IN THE OVEN! (:
((:
& I'LL SHARE THE LOVE TMR! ((:
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS & I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME !(: |
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| 22. & I'll bury those feelings somewhere in my heart ; |
[Nov. 11th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
history did repeat again. SO BAD THIS TIME. It hurts when the one you love, loves someone else and when he is down you're trying so hard to console him. I havent cried for anyone for the longest time & It will have to come to a stop soon.
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| 21. FALLEN ; |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|02:11 am] |
at least you found someone who will love you more than i do.
honestly im happy for you (:
idk why i was so upset last night. very heavy & i guess everyone will face it in life, family friendship and relationship problems.
i think ive fallen bad enough this time. yet you are giving me all the wrong signs. but i wont allow history to repeat! I PROMISE I WONT ALLOW MYSELF TO GET HURT ANYMORE. (:
SAMPAN! IM HERE! JUST A CALL OR TEXT AWAY! (: REMEMBER. |
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| 20. SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH FOR ME TO REMEMBER ; |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:14 pm] |
HISTORY REPEATED! DAMN HONESTLY IM A LITTLE UPSET. BUT the good thing is that im early to climb out of that hole.
YES KENNETH IM FINE! (: DONT WORRY! (;
OKAY CLARIFIED! BUT I JUST DONT LIKE THE FEELING I HAD PREVIOUSLY! ): GOD OH GOD!
NO MORE REPEAT OF HISTORY! NO MORE! |
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| 19. Let's Just Stop Now & Make Everything As Beautiful As It Seems ; |
[Nov. 4th, 2009|11:16 pm] |
I Think this is bad. Im falling so bad before it even started. it kills me when you dont reply my text messages. and when you do i get so excited its like the whole process again. I DONT WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT! OH FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE PLEASE GET ME OUT OF THE HOLE!
You should stop being so nice & I am going to play the idk you game. DAMN IT!
LET IT END BEFORE IT STARTS!
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| 18. Dear Friend ; |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|01:09 am] |
Before I Fall I Should Precaution myself.
This Time I Wont Let History Repeat.
You are not the one.
Feelings are lying to you once again.
Wake up and get up before you really fall.(:
倒数
怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌 歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默 你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麽处处在意我
越害怕伤害我 我感觉越难受
你不懂 我没你想象脆弱
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
知道你的爱 你确定不是我
下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我 真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著 越加速疏远了
别触碰 我在深藏的笑容
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我
是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动 直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪突然夺眶而出 快要不能自己
难 很困难 再这样说的多快乐
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 我们都爱过
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的
but you read my character so well
just like the storybook you held on to everynight
maybe you are just what you say
a passer-by that stopped slightly longer
in my life (:
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| 17. BARNEY THE PURPLE DINOSAUR! (: |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|07:39 pm] |
YESTERDAY WAS THE AUDITIONS! PRETTY GOOD RESPONSE! (: AFTER AUDITIONS AROUND 5 plus 6, headed to outram park to collect vouchers from MC !(: HAHAH BUMPED INTO LAOSHI but i think he was having some meeting so we dint talked. (: HAHAH but he told there there will be another round of auditions for the performing class. OHWELLS im so broke now i can hardly afford my iphone. ): Hopefully mummy gets it for me for christmas.
KEN THIS IS NOT A SIGN FOR YOU TO BUY IT FOR ME FIRST I DONT KNOW HOW TO PAY YOU BACK, IVE GOT NO MONIES! AHAHAH (:
After collecting the vouchers i headed over to hospital! DADDY CHASED ME HOME cos my flu was very bad. Called ken & met him at ******! AHAHA REASON BEING FOR THE *'s COS IF I MENTION THE PLACE LOUISE WILL KNOW HER SURPRISE AHAHAH. (: HAD RAMEN FOR DINNER AND THAN HEADED HOME. & I WAS HOME ALONE ! ):
STARTED FB-ING AND I CREATED A TAGBOARD ON ARTHUR'S PAGE.HAHA & STARTED ON THE THEME PARTY TICKETS. NOT VERY MUCH IN THE MOOD THOUGH HOPEFULLY GC APPROVES IT! (: WELL IDK WHETHER LOUISE AND I ARE SOMEWHAT LINKED OR WHAT. BUT WE ARE ALWAYS FEELING DOWN AT THE SAME TIME. LAST TIME WHEN I WAS FEELING DOWN WAS BECAUSE OF KSHJ & she was down about sth else as well. ):
A lot has been going on in the family & i can see the struggles that adults will face in the future. work money & everything i just hate the fact that because of money a family is falling apart.
ALDRIN has been making me laugh since yesterday , funny shit. I MISSED SCHOOL TODAY AND WOKE UP AT 9am. AND HE ASKED WAKE UP SO EARLY THAN DO WHAT? I REPLIED WATCH TEEVEE. HE ASKED, WATCH CARTOON? I REPLIED YES I WATCHED BARNEY. & HE TOLD ME HE WATCHED POKEMON! -.- HAHAHA
KEN: THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YESTERDAY! THERE ARE 3 THINGS THAT IM VERY GRATEFUL IN MY LIFE SO FAR & ONE OF IT IS MEETING YOU! (: ALTHOUGH THINGS DID NOT REALLY WORK OUT BETWEEN US AS R/S PARTNERS! IM VERY GRATEFUL THAT I MET YOU AS MY SOUL MATE! (: & I WOULD WANT YOU TO BE PART OF MY LIFE TILL DEATH! (:
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| 16. Would you still love me tmr? |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|10:41 pm] |
HO HO I FINALLY WATCHED SISTERS KEEPERS! AHAHAH VERY TOUCHING! ((:
TODAY WENT ROUND TO PROMOTE FOR THEME PARTY STUFF, WAS GOOD I MUST SAY. AT LEAST BETTER than bowling.
This few days i havent been feeling very well idk i feel very tired and i dont feel like doing anything at all. No mood no energy and i dont feel like myself. OH WELLS! ):
PS: I THINK IM
Officially Missing You
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| 15. Decisions |
[Oct. 21st, 2009|11:49 pm] |
I made a very big decision today. I lost a R/S Partner yet i gained a soulmate! (: I never blamed you but i just realised or should i say understand its very hard to forget someone. Like i said soulmates are forever yet R/S partners might not last. You told me that not to think too much and enjoy every single moment! HOWEVER you can say im greedy but i want those feelings to last forever ! (: I somehow think you mean a LOT to mean so much that i think i'll die losing you in my life. I am SO happy we had that talk ! (:
THIS IS THE PROMISE YOU HAVE FROM ME TO YOU ! (:
1) CALL WHENEVER YOU NEED! 3am EVEN THOUGH IM DEAD BEAT I'LL ENTERTAIN YOU!
2)SHOULDERS I'LL LEND YOU EVEN THOUGH IM SHORTER! HAHAH
3)TIRAMISU'S, BREAD PUDDING, POTATO GRATIN! (: YOU NAME IT I'LL FIND THE RECEIPE AND COOK IT FOR YOU! (:
4)FOREVER AND ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! (: |
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| 14. Pause II |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|07:04 pm] |
Have you ever felt that someone else loves you more than you love him?
Have you ever felt that you are unable to repay love?
Have you ever felt you owe that someone so much love?
Have you ever felt unworthy for that someone?
I used to feel that being loved was more blissful than loving. Indeed i still feel that way.
Maybe its because i havent been in a relationship for more than 6 months. I just forgot how to love already.
Its very tiring esp when i feel that you deserve someone better than me. REALLY!
You ALWAYS TELL ME. DONT BOTHER WHETHER WE'LL LAST JUST ENJOY EVERY MOMENT.
(:
寂寞，好了
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| 13. What To Do? |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|07:43 pm] |
I dont know what are we now.
you came into my life just when i needed a shoulder.
you were there at my lowest point.
when i was trying to get two very important people out of my life
you were there.
you taught me how to be stronger
you told me not to be easy pushed over
&
you even called me one of your own.
you dropped me that very text which seemed so real
& called me two weeks later saying that it was a plan we had.
I REALLY HOPE YOU DONT GET HURT. IF YOU REALLY DONT LOVE. STOP PLAYING. (:
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (: |
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| 12. You Can Hide But Your Feelings are Real & They Show ; |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
FUCK TR! I SWEAR I HATE THAT FUCKER . REALLY
!YOU SCOLD ME FOR THINGS THAT I SHOULD KNOW AND I DONT DO IT WELL. HOW DO I BLOODY KNOW WE WERE SUPPOSED TO SERVE THE SOUP THAT WAY, YOU DINT EVEN SHOW.
& THAT FUCKING MIC THAT WROTE IN! YOU WATCH OUT! SUCKING UP THIS WAY WILL GET YOU NO WHERE.
HOOLAH! THANKS ABBY I REALLY NEEDED THAT TALK ! (: & K THOUGH YOU WERE SLEEPING! (: HAHAHAH
GOT HOME AROUND 5.30pm, SLEPT REALLY BAD ON THE TRAIN, MY HEAD STILL SPINNING THOUGH.
I WAS SO UPSET LAST NIGHT! ): MUM CONFISCATED ALL THE CANDIES THAT K BOUGHT FOR ME AND GAVE IT TO HER STUDENTS ! ):
LUCKY IVE STILL GOT TAIWAN JELLIES AND WONKA STICKS! (: HAHAHAH
OH WELLS! THESE FEW DAYS IVE BEEN A TV ADDICT, EVERYNIGHT AT 10pm SHARP I WILL WATCH WO AI HEI SHE BANG BANG TANG! (:
COS IVE GOT NEW CURFEW FOR 2 weeks COS MUM'S LEAVING FOR A AND DAD IS TAKING OVER ): THAT MEANS NO STAYOVERS NO LATENIGHTS AND NO DESSERT SESSIONS AT NIGHT! ):
MUM WAS SO MEAN! I ASKED HER TO LOOK OUT FOR A NICE BAG FOR ME AND SHE REPLIED, "YOU THINK I PRINT MONEY ONE AH? BUY DESIGNER BAGS FOR YOU, YOU SO YOUNG USE WHAT DESIGNER BAGS?"
I REPLIED , "UH I MEANT BAGS FROM THE FLEA MARKETS! HAHAHA -.-"
MUM, " IF I SEE LURH, HAIYO"
SHE PAISEH SIA! HAHAHAH
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VERY NICE! (: HAHAHA SHE DANCES SO WELL UH! (:
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| 11. Can I Have Your Initials On My Monogram? |
[Oct. 13th, 2009|04:13 pm] |
Sometimes I feel that trust is all we need ! (:
I'd Rather make up than break up.
Ive never felt so loved before
after the whole issue i felt that i was the part giving than receiving
i remembered sis once told me, in a relationship one party will always be giving more while they other is receiving.
ALTHOUGH i wasnt in a relationship before, but i had this friendship that i felt that i was giving too much and when things got ugly, i decided not to give in anymore. I WAS SELFISH. BUT ANYWAY EVERYONE'S HAPPY NOW.
Now i feel that im the one receiving more than giving therefore i feel that i need to trust! (:
I REMEMBERED I ONCE SAID THIS,
WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE
IF ITS NOT YOURS NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY IT WONT BE YOURS! (:
NOW IVE FOUND MINE ! (:
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| 10 I Dont Love You For Your Name, I Love You For You. (: |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|02:45 am] |
wednesday was 1st week, yet you're so far away.
postponed your trip cos couldnt find your school?
having too much fun that you've got no time to text?
GO FIND YOUR TAIWAN GF LURH. HAIJIO!. HAHAH
TODAY I GOT NEW FRIEND ORH. HERH!
& PLEASE REFER TO MY TITTLE OF THIS POST! I DO NOT LOVE YOU COS YOU'VE GOT THE SAME NAME AS HIM,
I LOVE YOU FOR
WHO YOU ARE.
NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE FROM
HOW YOU ARE
NO MATTER HOW SHY YOU ARE
YOUR IRRITATING-NESS! (:
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I was the kind of girl who didn’t need a guy to make me happy. The kind of girl who didn’t fall in love easily until that one guy came along.
& I THINK I FOUND HIM! (:
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