| 23. I Want To Know What Love Is & I Want YOU To Show Me! (: |
[Nov. 19th, 2009|11:05 pm] |
I HAVENT BEEN BLOGGING HERE FOR THE LONGEST TIME! (: HAHAHAH
SCHOOL'S BEEN PRETTY BUSY WITH THEME PARTY THINGS AND PROJECTS! BUT IM HAPPY TO SAY THAT THEME PARTY FINALLY ENDED LAST NIGHT! (: EMCEE-ING WITH JD WAS ALRIGHT I GUESS. HE DID A LOT COS I HAD A VERY BAD STAGE FRIGHT! AHAHAH
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& HE ATTENDED THEME PARTY! (: HAHAH
OKAY OKAY. IM HAPPY NOW. VERY HAPPY IDK WHY! I WOKE UP A LITTLE TOO LATE FOR LESSON TODAY SO I DECIDED TO GIVE IT A MISS AND I WAS LUCKY COS! LESSON CANCELED! HAHAH I BAKE CUPCAKES THAT TURNED OUT TO BE MUFFINS COS I RAN OUT OF CUPCAKE PAPER INSTEAD I USED MUFFIN CUPS! HAHAHAHAAH BUT IM VERY HAPPY COS MUMMY ATE IT AND SHE SAID ITS NICE! (: FINALLY MUMMY ATE MY PASTRY! OTHER THAN THE PINEAPPLE TARTS I BAKE FOR CNY! ((:
MY MUFFINS IN THE OVEN! (:
((:
& I'LL SHARE THE LOVE TMR! ((:
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS & I WANT YOU TO SHOW ME !(: |
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| 22. & I'll bury those feelings somewhere in my heart ; |
[Nov. 11th, 2009|11:49 pm] |
history did repeat again. SO BAD THIS TIME. It hurts when the one you love, loves someone else and when he is down you're trying so hard to console him. I havent cried for anyone for the longest time & It will have to come to a stop soon.
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| 21. FALLEN ; |
[Nov. 8th, 2009|02:11 am] |
at least you found someone who will love you more than i do.
honestly im happy for you (:
idk why i was so upset last night. very heavy & i guess everyone will face it in life, family friendship and relationship problems.
i think ive fallen bad enough this time. yet you are giving me all the wrong signs. but i wont allow history to repeat! I PROMISE I WONT ALLOW MYSELF TO GET HURT ANYMORE. (:
SAMPAN! IM HERE! JUST A CALL OR TEXT AWAY! (: REMEMBER. |
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| 20. SIGNIFICANT ENOUGH FOR ME TO REMEMBER ; |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:14 pm] |
HISTORY REPEATED! DAMN HONESTLY IM A LITTLE UPSET. BUT the good thing is that im early to climb out of that hole.
YES KENNETH IM FINE! (: DONT WORRY! (;
OKAY CLARIFIED! BUT I JUST DONT LIKE THE FEELING I HAD PREVIOUSLY! ): GOD OH GOD!
NO MORE REPEAT OF HISTORY! NO MORE! |
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| 19. Let's Just Stop Now & Make Everything As Beautiful As It Seems ; |
[Nov. 4th, 2009|11:16 pm] |
I Think this is bad. Im falling so bad before it even started. it kills me when you dont reply my text messages. and when you do i get so excited its like the whole process again. I DONT WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT! OH FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE PLEASE GET ME OUT OF THE HOLE!
You should stop being so nice & I am going to play the idk you game. DAMN IT!
LET IT END BEFORE IT STARTS!
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| 18. Dear Friend ; |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|01:09 am] |
Before I Fall I Should Precaution myself.
This Time I Wont Let History Repeat.
You are not the one.
Feelings are lying to you once again.
Wake up and get up before you really fall.(:
倒数
怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌 歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默 你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麽处处在意我
越害怕伤害我 我感觉越难受
你不懂 我没你想象脆弱
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
知道你的爱 你确定不是我
下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我 真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著 越加速疏远了
别触碰 我在深藏的笑容
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我
是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动 直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪突然夺眶而出 快要不能自己
难 很困难 再这样说的多快乐
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 我们都爱过
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的
but you read my character so well
just like the storybook you held on to everynight
maybe you are just what you say
a passer-by that stopped slightly longer
in my life (:
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| 17. BARNEY THE PURPLE DINOSAUR! (: |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|07:39 pm] |
YESTERDAY WAS THE AUDITIONS! PRETTY GOOD RESPONSE! (: AFTER AUDITIONS AROUND 5 plus 6, headed to outram park to collect vouchers from MC !(: HAHAH BUMPED INTO LAOSHI but i think he was having some meeting so we dint talked. (: HAHAH but he told there there will be another round of auditions for the performing class. OHWELLS im so broke now i can hardly afford my iphone. ): Hopefully mummy gets it for me for christmas.
KEN THIS IS NOT A SIGN FOR YOU TO BUY IT FOR ME FIRST I DONT KNOW HOW TO PAY YOU BACK, IVE GOT NO MONIES! AHAHAH (:
After collecting the vouchers i headed over to hospital! DADDY CHASED ME HOME cos my flu was very bad. Called ken & met him at ******! AHAHA REASON BEING FOR THE *'s COS IF I MENTION THE PLACE LOUISE WILL KNOW HER SURPRISE AHAHAH. (: HAD RAMEN FOR DINNER AND THAN HEADED HOME. & I WAS HOME ALONE ! ):
STARTED FB-ING AND I CREATED A TAGBOARD ON ARTHUR'S PAGE.HAHA & STARTED ON THE THEME PARTY TICKETS. NOT VERY MUCH IN THE MOOD THOUGH HOPEFULLY GC APPROVES IT! (: WELL IDK WHETHER LOUISE AND I ARE SOMEWHAT LINKED OR WHAT. BUT WE ARE ALWAYS FEELING DOWN AT THE SAME TIME. LAST TIME WHEN I WAS FEELING DOWN WAS BECAUSE OF KSHJ & she was down about sth else as well. ):
A lot has been going on in the family & i can see the struggles that adults will face in the future. work money & everything i just hate the fact that because of money a family is falling apart.
ALDRIN has been making me laugh since yesterday , funny shit. I MISSED SCHOOL TODAY AND WOKE UP AT 9am. AND HE ASKED WAKE UP SO EARLY THAN DO WHAT? I REPLIED WATCH TEEVEE. HE ASKED, WATCH CARTOON? I REPLIED YES I WATCHED BARNEY. & HE TOLD ME HE WATCHED POKEMON! -.- HAHAHA
KEN: THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YESTERDAY! THERE ARE 3 THINGS THAT IM VERY GRATEFUL IN MY LIFE SO FAR & ONE OF IT IS MEETING YOU! (: ALTHOUGH THINGS DID NOT REALLY WORK OUT BETWEEN US AS R/S PARTNERS! IM VERY GRATEFUL THAT I MET YOU AS MY SOUL MATE! (: & I WOULD WANT YOU TO BE PART OF MY LIFE TILL DEATH! (:
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| 16. Would you still love me tmr? |
[Oct. 26th, 2009|10:41 pm] |
HO HO I FINALLY WATCHED SISTERS KEEPERS! AHAHAH VERY TOUCHING! ((:
TODAY WENT ROUND TO PROMOTE FOR THEME PARTY STUFF, WAS GOOD I MUST SAY. AT LEAST BETTER than bowling.
This few days i havent been feeling very well idk i feel very tired and i dont feel like doing anything at all. No mood no energy and i dont feel like myself. OH WELLS! ):
PS: I THINK IM
Officially Missing You
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| 15. Decisions |
[Oct. 21st, 2009|11:49 pm] |
I made a very big decision today. I lost a R/S Partner yet i gained a soulmate! (: I never blamed you but i just realised or should i say understand its very hard to forget someone. Like i said soulmates are forever yet R/S partners might not last. You told me that not to think too much and enjoy every single moment! HOWEVER you can say im greedy but i want those feelings to last forever ! (: I somehow think you mean a LOT to mean so much that i think i'll die losing you in my life. I am SO happy we had that talk ! (:
THIS IS THE PROMISE YOU HAVE FROM ME TO YOU ! (:
1) CALL WHENEVER YOU NEED! 3am EVEN THOUGH IM DEAD BEAT I'LL ENTERTAIN YOU!
2)SHOULDERS I'LL LEND YOU EVEN THOUGH IM SHORTER! HAHAH
3)TIRAMISU'S, BREAD PUDDING, POTATO GRATIN! (: YOU NAME IT I'LL FIND THE RECEIPE AND COOK IT FOR YOU! (:
4)FOREVER AND ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! (: |
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| 14. Pause II |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|07:04 pm] |
Have you ever felt that someone else loves you more than you love him?
Have you ever felt that you are unable to repay love?
Have you ever felt you owe that someone so much love?
Have you ever felt unworthy for that someone?
I used to feel that being loved was more blissful than loving. Indeed i still feel that way.
Maybe its because i havent been in a relationship for more than 6 months. I just forgot how to love already.
Its very tiring esp when i feel that you deserve someone better than me. REALLY!
You ALWAYS TELL ME. DONT BOTHER WHETHER WE'LL LAST JUST ENJOY EVERY MOMENT.
(:
寂寞，好了
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| 13. What To Do? |
[Oct. 18th, 2009|07:43 pm] |
I dont know what are we now.
you came into my life just when i needed a shoulder.
you were there at my lowest point.
when i was trying to get two very important people out of my life
you were there.
you taught me how to be stronger
you told me not to be easy pushed over
&
you even called me one of your own.
you dropped me that very text which seemed so real
& called me two weeks later saying that it was a plan we had.
I REALLY HOPE YOU DONT GET HURT. IF YOU REALLY DONT LOVE. STOP PLAYING. (:
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (: |
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| 12. You Can Hide But Your Feelings are Real & They Show ; |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
FUCK TR! I SWEAR I HATE THAT FUCKER . REALLY
!YOU SCOLD ME FOR THINGS THAT I SHOULD KNOW AND I DONT DO IT WELL. HOW DO I BLOODY KNOW WE WERE SUPPOSED TO SERVE THE SOUP THAT WAY, YOU DINT EVEN SHOW.
& THAT FUCKING MIC THAT WROTE IN! YOU WATCH OUT! SUCKING UP THIS WAY WILL GET YOU NO WHERE.
HOOLAH! THANKS ABBY I REALLY NEEDED THAT TALK ! (: & K THOUGH YOU WERE SLEEPING! (: HAHAHAH
GOT HOME AROUND 5.30pm, SLEPT REALLY BAD ON THE TRAIN, MY HEAD STILL SPINNING THOUGH.
I WAS SO UPSET LAST NIGHT! ): MUM CONFISCATED ALL THE CANDIES THAT K BOUGHT FOR ME AND GAVE IT TO HER STUDENTS ! ):
LUCKY IVE STILL GOT TAIWAN JELLIES AND WONKA STICKS! (: HAHAHAH
OH WELLS! THESE FEW DAYS IVE BEEN A TV ADDICT, EVERYNIGHT AT 10pm SHARP I WILL WATCH WO AI HEI SHE BANG BANG TANG! (:
COS IVE GOT NEW CURFEW FOR 2 weeks COS MUM'S LEAVING FOR A AND DAD IS TAKING OVER ): THAT MEANS NO STAYOVERS NO LATENIGHTS AND NO DESSERT SESSIONS AT NIGHT! ):
MUM WAS SO MEAN! I ASKED HER TO LOOK OUT FOR A NICE BAG FOR ME AND SHE REPLIED, "YOU THINK I PRINT MONEY ONE AH? BUY DESIGNER BAGS FOR YOU, YOU SO YOUNG USE WHAT DESIGNER BAGS?"
I REPLIED , "UH I MEANT BAGS FROM THE FLEA MARKETS! HAHAHA -.-"
MUM, " IF I SEE LURH, HAIYO"
SHE PAISEH SIA! HAHAHAH
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VERY NICE! (: HAHAHA SHE DANCES SO WELL UH! (:
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| 11. Can I Have Your Initials On My Monogram? |
[Oct. 13th, 2009|04:13 pm] |
Sometimes I feel that trust is all we need ! (:
I'd Rather make up than break up.
Ive never felt so loved before
after the whole issue i felt that i was the part giving than receiving
i remembered sis once told me, in a relationship one party will always be giving more while they other is receiving.
ALTHOUGH i wasnt in a relationship before, but i had this friendship that i felt that i was giving too much and when things got ugly, i decided not to give in anymore. I WAS SELFISH. BUT ANYWAY EVERYONE'S HAPPY NOW.
Now i feel that im the one receiving more than giving therefore i feel that i need to trust! (:
I REMEMBERED I ONCE SAID THIS,
WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE
IF ITS NOT YOURS NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY IT WONT BE YOURS! (:
NOW IVE FOUND MINE ! (:
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| 10 I Dont Love You For Your Name, I Love You For You. (: |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|02:45 am] |
wednesday was 1st week, yet you're so far away.
postponed your trip cos couldnt find your school?
having too much fun that you've got no time to text?
GO FIND YOUR TAIWAN GF LURH. HAIJIO!. HAHAH
TODAY I GOT NEW FRIEND ORH. HERH!
& PLEASE REFER TO MY TITTLE OF THIS POST! I DO NOT LOVE YOU COS YOU'VE GOT THE SAME NAME AS HIM,
I LOVE YOU FOR
WHO YOU ARE.
NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE FROM
HOW YOU ARE
NO MATTER HOW SHY YOU ARE
YOUR IRRITATING-NESS! (:
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU
I was the kind of girl who didn’t need a guy to make me happy. The kind of girl who didn’t fall in love easily until that one guy came along.
& I THINK I FOUND HIM! (:
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| 009 Always On My Mind ; |
[Oct. 4th, 2009|08:54 pm] |
had a very stupid tiff last thursday
however i felt it brought us closer (:
STUPID FOOL I BET you were so frightened last night yet you didnt tell me anything ):
YESTERDAY KENBY ASKED A VERY FUNNY QUESTION
Justi - na♥ says:
I WANT MY FUTURE KITCHEN TO BE BIG AND PRETTY SO I CAN DO BAKING AND COOKING ALL!(:
kenby G says:
am i part of ur future house den?
Justi - na♥ says:
OH WELLS THANK GOD YOU ARE FINE (:
HAHAHAH (:
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HO HO WORK TODAY AT NS! (: NOT ms ! NS! NS! YES YES I HAD TO WEAR AH LIAN HAIR CLIPS ): COS THE STORE WERE SELLING THEM. I DONT REALLY LIKE THE JOB BUT NO CHOICE ! ): I NEED MONIES PLENTY! COS I WANA SAVE FOR A TRIP TO TAIWAN! (:
AFTER WORK I HEADED TO ME SHAUN TO COLLECT MY PHONE! YES YES EVERYONE YOU CAN CALL ME NOW I WONT REJECT ANY CALLS UNLESS YOU HAPPEN TO BE A DOG AND A
OWNER! OOPS.
HAHAHAH (:
AND PEOPLE WHO HAS FUCKING PROBLEMS WITH ME
SAY IT IN MY FACE ANYONE BUT YOU, UH AND DO
PLEASE PISS A PUDDLE OF URINE SO YOU CAN LOOK AT YOUR REFLECTION
YOU DOG BEFORE SAYING ANYTHING. HAHAHAH
I AM NOT FUCKING DEAF I CAN HEAR EVERY SINGLE THING YOU SAY IN DOG!
YOU GOT MY NUMBER YOU NOT HAPPY CALL! I WILL FUCKING PICK UP AND SCOLD YOU IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE AND NOT BITCH
BEHIND YOUR BACK!
MIND YOU IVE GOT TEMPER! YOU ARE JUST A BOOTLICKER! WHATEVER I DO WHETHER ITS RIGHT OR WRONG I DARE TO FACE
THE CONSEQUENCES. IF YOU EVER SPEAK ILL OF ME AND I FUCKING FIND OUT. YOU WATCH OUT. YOU REALLY DO.
HOOLA! ENOUGH VENTING!
(:
I AM SO EGGCITED FOR SCHOOL AND PROJECTS! (: HAHAH I WANA DO REALLY WELL FOR ALL SUBJECTS THIS TERM! (:
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| 008 & Now's My Turn To Try For Your Love <3 |
[Sep. 30th, 2009|10:20 pm] |
HELLO YOU!
BON VOYAGE!
I SO WANA SEE YOU OFF YET YOU SHOO ME OFF.
SEE YOU TWO WEEKS LATER!
If I Walk Will You Run
If I Stop Will You Come
If I Say You're The One Will You Show Me The Way?
HO HO TODAY TR QUITE SLACK.
DISCUSSION FOR THEME PARTY WAS SHIT
AFTER THAT HEADED TO HOST LIFE TO TOUCH UP STUFFS REGARDING THE BOWLING COMPETITION
THAN HEADED OFF TO LOT 1 FOR GC's CRAVING LJS.
HAHAHHA I FELL DOWN. AFTER SO LONG!
I WAS TELLING KENby AND MUM LAST NIGHT. ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST FELL (:
AND POFF I FELL! ): HAHAHAH IT WAS VERY FUNNY COS I WAS DISTURBING KAI ABOUT HOW LOSER HE WAS
I GUESS ITS INSTANT KARMA. AHAHAH OHWELLS!
AFTER THAT REACHED LOT 1 AND SATISFIED GC'S CRAVING. HAHAHAH
HEADED HOME, FEELING VERY TIRED WANTED To Sleep ON THE TRAIN BUT COULDNT. ):
KenBY came over to meet me for dinner instead and insisted that i dont see him off.
IDIOT.
OH WELLS! (: SUDDEN EMPTYNESS SOMEHOW I JUST CANT STOP SMILING TO MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT HAHAH
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|05:14 pm] |
KENBY LIM YOU WATCH OUT!
2 years and 2 weeks YOU KNOW THE DIFFERENCE?
IDIOT! YOU GOOD!
HUMPH!
YOU REMEMBERED!
NI JI ZHU!
HAHAHA SCHOOL ENDED SO EARLY TODAY! AND I HEADED HOME WANTED TO SLEEP! BUT COULDNT SLEEP UH. IVE GOT NO HABITS FOR AFTERNOON NAP! ):
OR WELLS TODAY I FEEL VERY STRONG IN TERMS OF THE MATTERS OF HEART.
LAST TIME I USED TO CRY MY WAY HOME JUST THE SIGHT OF YOUR FACE COULD MAKE ME DO SO
HONESTLY I WAS A LITTLE UPSET BUT NO TEARS WERE SHED.
MAYBE I'VE STOPPED FEELING FOR YOU ALREADY
STOP THINKING THAT IVE DONE YOU WRONG
I HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING SHADY.
THIS TIME I BELIEVE I've LOST FRIENDS AND A BUDDY.
HOWEVER I FOUND TRUE FRIENDS , GOT CLOSER TO MY FRIDAY THERAPISTS , CAVEMAN & LASTLY SOMEONE WORTHY OF THAT SHARE OF LOVE (:
We are all a little weird
and
life's a little weird,
and
when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them
and
fall in mutual weirdness and call it
LOVE.& I'll BE TRYING FOR YOUR LOVE. <3
TRY - ASHER BOOK
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| 006 HELLO CRUEL WORLD ; |
[Sep. 26th, 2009|02:02 am] |
AS MUCH AS I HATE YOU I CANT HELP TO AGREE THAT YES.
I AM IN THE SITUATION OF
SEEING THE ONE I LOVE LEAVING FOR THE ONE HE & SHE LOVES.
PAINFUL INDEED BUT AS LONG AS SHE'S HAPPY WITH HIM
I'LL BE HAPPY FOR HER
but IT'S JUST VERY AWKWARD FOR MY SITUATION TO BE TALKING TO YOU
TIME IS ALL I NEED, THANK YOU.
COS ITS VERY HARD FOR ME TO TRUST PEOPLE ALL OVER AGAIN.
YOU STOOD UP FOR ME
YOU WERE THERE FOR ME
HOWEVER I KNOW YOU STILL WILL
BUT THINGS HAVE CHANGED
will you backstab your bf?
I DOUBT SO
ITS VERY HARD TO MAKE A DECISION
& Ive DECIDED TO BACKOUT.
FROM NOW ON I'LL BE CONCENTRATING ON STUDIES AND EFFORTS ON MY FRIDAY THERAPISTS! (: |
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| 005.5 Lets Talk About Tmr , Tmr |
[Sep. 24th, 2009|10:37 pm] |
I used to find it dumb in movies that one can related to closely to songs and cry to them for hours.
Yesterday i was dumb i listened to the same song over and over again crying while blogging and crying while trying to sleep
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The most painful night ever
so tired physically
yet my mind just wont give a rest
and that was how my night was spent last night
i never caught a wink at all
& this was the song that i cried to.
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| 005 Little Did I Know, You still Mean A Lot To Me ; |
[Sep. 24th, 2009|10:17 pm] |
honestly i dont understand how i still can be so happy over this matter.
It's troubling really.
wilson asked, are you really happy?
I answered, HOOGASHAGA! (caveman language)
ohwells he said you just dont know how to answer my question, and he decided not to ask knowing that i have an answer in my heart.
JUSTINA YANG!
WHAT ARE YOU DOING!
WAKE UP!
GET OVER!
MOVE ON!
LOVE SOMEONE ELSE MORE WORTH YOU LOVE!
CARE FOR SOMEONE ELSE MORE WORTH YOU CARE
BE THERE FOR SOMEONE ELSE MORE WORTH YOU ATTENTION.
FUCK SIA FUCK FUCK FUCK!
I HAVENT FELT SO LOST FOR THE LONGEST TIME! REALLY
REALLY
REALLY
AND IM FIGHTING THIS ALL BY MYSELF THIS TIME
ITS SO FUCKING HARD TO TRUST ANYONE NOW
AFTER WHAT HAS HAPPENED!
REALLY
I REALLY WANT TO TRUST BUT ITS A BARRIER I CANT CROSS
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FUCK SIA FUCK FUCK FUCK!
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